注定隻身終老

一位認識了十幾年, 又大十幾歲的朋友表白.
應該是說, 隔了好幾年第二次表白.
還是沒有那種超友誼的感覺, 不就是兄弟嘛...
很不好意思的又拒絕了, 除了年紀還有很多其他的不一樣, 真的不是我那杯咖啡.

心酸酸

誤解

許廷鏗

曾經好友跟我共坐
何故現已想到閃躲
從不懂去表達真我
年月儲起憎怨幾多

朋友我當你一秒朋友
K房裡懷念當天小爭鬥
直到反目明白舊日戰友
原來從未算真心好友

誤解我機心太多
不懂交心誰錯
解釋增加罪過
發誓更顯出錯
誤解過後誰恨我
結局散席放手離座
座上客只得一個我
仍妄想一位會認領我

如今好友都對著幹
計算敵我刻意生疏
惶恐終要交戰倒戈
連說話也要算盡過

朋友我當你一秒朋友
K房裡懷念當天小爭鬥
直到反目明白舊日戰友
原來從未算真心好友

誤解我機心太多
不懂交心誰錯
解釋增加罪過
發誓更顯出錯
誤解過後誰恨我
結局散席放手離座
座上客只得一個我
仍妄想一位會認領我

難受過 承受過 全部過錯
累過麼 恨我麼 尚有幾多
未怕一巴打我發洩一生足夠麼

誤解我機心太多
不懂交心誰錯
解釋增加罪過
發誓更顯出錯
而我不管他怎樣恨我
也沒理會我怎無助
尚在妄想修補過錯
期盼他朝終會認真我

朋友我當你一世朋友
想起那承諾跟尾指緊扣
到今日才能成熟看透
原來曾結識經已足夠

Time for home

Nearing the end of a very long journey very long way away from home.
Feels like I haven't relaxed at all, it's definitely not a vacation when I don't sleep over 15 hours a day and do nothing but watch tv and lounge around.
I miss my Kingsdown bed and well supported memory foam pillow.  I miss cooking for my parents.  I miss my Rav 4.  Canada really is my home.  Hong Kong has turned so strange to me, and I feel bad for my friends and family who have no other options but to fight the long fight.
After a full day sleep when I'm back, I'll spring right into work mode.  Need the money!
I have also put aside my dad's website far too long.  It's time I get off my arse and do some hard work.
I did learn about myself a lot in this trip, through very painful routes.  Figure either this will put me into complete retraction mode, but I chose to confront and resolve.  Finally feel like I'm becoming an adult in a small way.

For karma!

It's so satisfying to translate 7 short stories in a go, and 10 in total.
I think my google translate skill has improved very fast!
HA!

A few of them made me quite confused, since it was written in some kind of a local Chinese dialect and in simplified Chinese.
My eyes and brains are still spinning.

And I feel happy that it's done pro-bono for a friend.
She has another 60 of these to translate and I can totally feel her pain.
Hope my small amount of effort can be transformed into good karma!

Now I must fall into my longed slumber...
ZZZzzzzz.....

Practising VIOLIN

That's right, you didn't misread.
I was practising violin for about 2 hours today, just randomly dug up my sister's old concertos and some new stuff I downloaded from IMSLP.
Surprisingly my violin skills have improved throughout the years.  I remember having a hard time reading Kreisler's Praeludium and Allegro, but now I can read it a lot smoothly and precisely.  Bruch is a lot easier as well and runs are automatic!  Guess those arpeggio practising really paid off! XD
Unfortunately my left ear still can't stand the stupid violin shrieking, and has muted a bit now with a minor ring.
I also realize my carbon fibre al cheapo violin bow is very loud compared to the wooden bow, but there's little spiccato control on that thing.  I would still prefer a wooden bow regardless!

Another reason why I have to pick up the violin is because I'm getting hired as violin 2 in Peterborough more than on viola.
It's not all bad, since I'm usually seated with George and it's great to learn some violin orchestral stuff.