long whine

WON the bike at $800!
ok, that was a bit too much. plus i'll have to get other accessories as well.
sigh...

the Brahms 5tet was going very well. pulled it off with a week of rehearsals and a 4-hr coaching that's generously given by (all hail to) Peter Longworth.
it definitely feels strange playing the piece with Daemon. i was used to playing it on Tiger, but then if i were to go back on it it'd feel strange too.

the heat is not helping with my tiredness.
especially with all that driving last week, i need to sleep non stop for a day to recover.

finally watched the last episode of Lost.
it does need some time to chew on. maybe i'll rewatch the entire show in a year's time or something.
i'm just glad it's finally finished. such a long cliffhanger!
imagine never finding your favourite, perfect pairs of jeans for a few years. that's how it felt to me.

ok, off to teach at the fucking music school.
GRRRRRRR
hope that rolled over cement truck will not get in my way at 427/407.

expenditures up ahead

it was a fun day trip yesterday to Elora.
i think i'm an alright leader for hiking, at least i didn't lose anyone at the end.

let's see.. this week is hectic, like any other week. hope i can survive it.
it's also the closing week for my police bike. let's see how much i'll need to spend in the end...
then i'll start looking for bike racks.
pretty sure will go with the Toyota ones, or ones that go on top.
don't feel like strapping things at the back door, which might scratch the paint on both my door and the bike.

lazy day off

i have decided to replace my current steel frame bike with an aluminium alloy frame bike.
coincidentally, they have some police bikes available on government auction. i believe they are near new condition.
my budget was originally $300 max, now it's $500 minimum!
considering these are german Stevens bike, which start from at least $1000+, i'd say it's a good bargain.
plus it says "Police Special Edition" on the frame!!! how cool is that??!
just have to allocate some money for a tune up and a bike rack for my Rav.

boy, but i'll have to go with my parents again because my dad has some stuff he wants.
so it'll be another Ottawa day trip... that means 11 hrs of driving in a day.
this time maybe we'll have the time to go to Parliament Hill again and check out the Rideau Falls.
my battle scars from the last Ottawa trip - 3 big mosquito bites.
itchy itchy itchy!!!

just finished arranging On the Lake, from The Notebook.
it's a conventional pop song, nice but boring musically.
still took me a while to finish it... i'm too distracted nowadays. this is something that i can finish in an instant... but i've decided to catch up on my tv shows first!
oh, what shame!

things of interest

i'm kissing the ground.
only 3 hrs of sleep, woke up with these big red demonic eyes at 5am this morning.
then drive to Ottawa, pick up 80 pairs of army boots with my parents, spent some time at Prince of Wales Falls, then drove home, have dinner with Bobo, Potato, and Nikki, and my parents of course.
then came 4 hours of email replies, personnel arrangements, and a short hot shower to wash away the sand and dirt from today's trip.
haven't even got to the song arrangements yet, and the earliest one is for this sunday.
sigh...
i need some snooze...
and exercise...
and good vegetarian food.

george brown's Vegetarian Cuisine Certificate costs around $2000.
it's a general interest programme, not professional. hmm... that seems too much to spend.
o well. guess i'll just have to ignore that part of me for now.

sorry... still the same heartless log.
don't really feel like emotional sharing these days.
trying to get better though, one small step at a time.
hopefully by xmas i'll be able to feel the joy of owning an iphone.

*THUD*
(drop dead on bed)

cough

cough cough cough...
cough...
cough cough...
COUGH!!!!!

i'm not sick. just very irritated throat.
either i have a very strong allergic reaction to something, or i'm extremely 熱氣.

this could be true, or this could be just a made-up.

i find it more and more difficult to connect to people. i'd rather keep digging the hole than keep my head up. i just don't feel the affect that should've been there.
lately i realize that i talk to myself too much... so i'm muting the conversations to keep up the sanity level. well, keeping it solely in the mind. the correspondence is still happening, just not verbally.
maybe all i need is a pet? or someone i can really talk to? i dunno, feels like i've lost the other half of myself.
it's a weird feeling. i used to think my other half is somewhere out in the world. but these few years i don't sense it any more. maybe it has died or gone off somewhere else.
maybe that's why i'm picking up hiking and photography? i'd rather face something non-human than interact with a human. how obnoxious is that?
let me put my mask back on. it's better that way. i would appear more human.