新的步伐

連續幾天都早睡早起, 感覺很充實, 其實蠻喜歡這個感覺.
可是因為還在裝修網頁常常弄到忘了午飯時間, 所以中午超餓然後吃太多又胃痛.
這情況有待調節.

回家有兩個禮拜了, 身體開始感覺到以車代步而沒有認真用腿走路.
既然早上開始了良好的 routine, 我想應該可以下個禮拜開始加半個小時的晨步.

太好了~ 好的改變終於發生了~

今天不睡覺?

今天十二分充滿幹勁, 7:00am 一起來就念佛, 然後牙也沒刷就做早餐.

之後記得還沒釀酒就把酒種準備一下下, 就去開始面對漫長的網頁裝修生涯.

可能拖了爸太多年, 真的太久了, 有很多 idea.

而且科技的進步, 應用程式也成熟了, 我要學學玩玩搞搞弄弄一大堆.

差點餓到忘了午餐!!

其實應該讓我的 pinky 好好休息... 昨天不知道怎樣把它扭到了... 好像斷掉了的感覺....

可是昨晚睡的不好又不夠, 身體整個奇怪的痠痛, 尤其是左右兩邊頸...

到現在已經連續工作了 22 小時

我還是去勉強的睡一下下好了...

唉...
牙還是沒刷...

誰來救救我?!

不知道是在逃避著甚麼還是真的在 jetlag...
就總是在白天睡覺黑夜活動的狀態!
而且肩膀超痛, 扁頭痛也來了.
好辛苦 (T_T)

輪轉

真的覺得洗澡的時候血液循環比較好, 想通的東西比較多.  今日洗熱澡又想到了一些.

我喜歡去台灣的原因好像是因為每次我去繞一圈, 認識自己會多一點.

這次帶回來的自己惰性還在, 可是自信心好像多了些.

我知道往後需要做甚麼, 不過以後的路不可以再平坦.

人生好像進入了岔口, 總覺得這是該來的改變.

問自己怕不怕?  應該是怕吧.  怕自己不願去改變又原地踏步.

就是要把那該死的惰性戒掉.

是時候把佛珠再次拿起, 修心修性, 淨化一下腦袋.

期待著未來的我.

Ranting

As I prepare my long, soon out of money journey to the east I look to my undersized single luggage case.
It's hard choosing what to bring for a trip traversing different climates and situations in a limited space.
It's also a good chance to teach myself not to buy unnecessary things when I'm there.

On my way home today I was just thinking of writing something about stage fright.
I have struggled to perform all my life from lack of confidence and preparation, but today and I think there's a different factor.
Aside from having no practise time on the material (I've learned and performed them before already), not sleeping enough for the past 2 weeks, and an empty stomach with no coffee.  Of course.
No, it wasn't these usual factors that's within my control that I can later blame myself for.
It's the fact that I am not fitting in artistically.
You know, that sort of feeling when the entire orchestra got lost and the conductor couldn't pull everyone back together for a very, very, very long time.
Then the words of another colleague came to my mind: some musicians don't want to be associated with certain performances or groups because of the quality and integrity of the performance.
I always thought it's the ego talking, but today I really felt it.
So I do know better.
Yet, this is giving me a new kind of stage fright.
The kind where I'm not playing up to par because of frustration.

Blossoms

The flight is officially booked, yay!
I have been talking to people who kept telling me that I'm brave to make a bold move to take a long vacation every year.
And I'm quite sadden by this, knowing that they don't take that kind of time for themselves to wind down and contemplate or enjoy life.
Our days aren't all spent on work and shit, as I said to one of these acquaintances, "I gotta eat my meals every day, why not eat them in exotic style or foreign locations?"
I wish down the road these acquaintances can finally find their balance in life.

We lived, we experienced, and we conquered!
Time to watch some zombies.

I'm going!

Decided to take the plunge after all.
I could use my points to pay for 90% of my plane ticket, just have to not go crazy shopping when I'm overseas.
The tours I take in Taiwan will have to be on credit card and worry later XD

I figure since I'll be out of a job, might as well enjoy the heck out of a long vacation first before working my butt off for auditions.
And who knows what will happen in the future?  If a zombie apocalypse pops up, I'll never get to visit all these places no more!
There's no time to worry about safety and terrorism.  Can't live under fear all my life, right?
And I can always make more money.

Yes, this post is to justify my 2 months vacation on a broke budget.
So there.  XD