Reflective contemplation

Ready for my month-long vacation, like now.
Well, not really.  I need more dough to spend when I'm off.
Only Hong Kong this time.  Not because I'm tired of going to Taiwan, but I wanted to finally do that geological park boat tour that only happens on Saturdays.

I think I've really taken too much on my plate since last year.
Thought I could do everything.  Well at one point I did managed to do so, but I also took on quite a lot of weight from snacking and just plain poor dinner choices.
Now I've got to lose all that fat before I head back so I can buy proper size clothing, and being able to travel to places with ease.
And no, it's not stress eating.  I've been a bad snacker all my life.

As people around me start to get married and have kids, they kept telling me it's time for me to act my age and start my own family.
But what's the point?
With constant terror threats, declining environment quality, low economic strength all over the world, I really don't see my offspring in a very nice world.
I don't mind taking care of other people's kids, they're fun to be with and to see growing up, but my own kids are my responsibility and I don't want them to suffer from what this world has to offer.

A soul mate would be nice to have for someone who'd like to be mentally naked to another.  So far I haven't met a true soul mate, but it's not up to me is it?
Even if I wanted a relationship, this person doesn't just arrive on my command.
If the universe feels like us bumping into each other, we are bound to meet let it be this life time or next.
Why should anyone be bothered that I don't meet this person this life time?
I just don't get it.
Just chill.

Nocturnal bliss

Finally here - my new bed.
No more sloppy mattress~  woohoo!
Bye bye Ikea crap bed, you have served me "well" for the past 12 years.

Woohoo!

Yay! Road trip!

Too greedy?

Ok, I might have taken up too many projects at the same time.
Wonder if I'll have time to finish them all?
It's already December, 3 more months away from the Calgary audition that I want to do, and still haven't started looking at the rep.
This is so gonna go well! XD

Restart

I was hoping there's more time to chill and rest when I'm in London, turned out I had limited time 'cause the freaking Sibelius 3 was difficult and I need to practise, and I was also invited to a Halloween party - first one I attended EVER.

It's tiring... it's really unwise to catch up on Vampire Diaries too late at night when I should be catching up on sleep instead.

On a different note, I randomly checked postings and found out there are 3 auditions that I might want to try: Calgary, Winnipeg, and Saskatoon.
Haven't touched my audition rep so long, but I'm confident I can pick it up in no time.
So this might mean I'll have to quit one of my office jobs soon, or at least reduce some hours to concentrate on practising.
Looking forward to that! Ha!
My last audition must've been at least 4 years ago?

I need another vacation!

Why do I always feel like I'm dying when I'm sick....?
The worst part is... it's so sunny and nice out and I couldn't go enjoy all that before the snow comes in.
Oh, and not to mention I'm constantly craving either fried chicken or wings and beer.
That ain't right.

Gardening is a hardship!

I've always wanted a fruit tree, multiple fruit trees actually, in the backyard.
And if I could have the say in how things grow in there, I'd make the center yard a complete vegetable and fruit garden instead of just grass and weed - mostly weed.
But I've been doing research all morning... the white mulberry tree is an Asian invasive species, endangering the red mulberry trees that's native only to Ontario.  However, it's very difficult locating a nursery that explicitly tell you which variety they sell, if they even sell mulberry trees.
Seems like it's not a very popular plant in the market.  I might have to call every single nursery in town to see if they carry any red mulberry seedlings.