完美的減壓時間

只要給我一天...
完全不接觸人類 - 讓我在不講話, 不溝通的環境下渡過這 24 小時.
我不會看電腦電視手機, 只會睡覺吃東西拉便便看風景.
這樣就足夠了.

Fan X-ing

前一陣子就開始想: 我現在的努力和汗水都是為別人在流.  恰巧之前突然間所有人都需要我的幫忙, 然後我就很自然的豪邁地扛下來.
我自己的 true calling 就好像被掃到地毯下了.
所以我不停的沉醉, 想要尋找出路,可是太忙了就不了了之.
最近才覺得, 這已經不是信仰和理論可以幫到我的地方.
我需要往內心深處看, 下一個路口要往哪邊走了.
我還笨蛋的把九月的旅程編成半公幹, 真的有的幹.  臭蛋呀我.
以前都把旅行的時間用作自我調整.  雖然最後錢包空虛, 不過腦袋裝回熱誠.
有預感這年的我會滿痛苦煎熬的.

另外, 減肥計畫是有在進行.
餐單方面控制食慾還算可以.  因為工作的關係所以也多了運動.
下一步就是修整睡眠時間... 嗯, yes, 現在凌晨四點多了.
所以嘛... 這點需要多加油.

Reflective contemplation

Ready for my month-long vacation, like now.
Well, not really.  I need more dough to spend when I'm off.
Only Hong Kong this time.  Not because I'm tired of going to Taiwan, but I wanted to finally do that geological park boat tour that only happens on Saturdays.

I think I've really taken too much on my plate since last year.
Thought I could do everything.  Well at one point I did managed to do so, but I also took on quite a lot of weight from snacking and just plain poor dinner choices.
Now I've got to lose all that fat before I head back so I can buy proper size clothing, and being able to travel to places with ease.
And no, it's not stress eating.  I've been a bad snacker all my life.

As people around me start to get married and have kids, they kept telling me it's time for me to act my age and start my own family.
But what's the point?
With constant terror threats, declining environment quality, low economic strength all over the world, I really don't see my offspring in a very nice world.
I don't mind taking care of other people's kids, they're fun to be with and to see growing up, but my own kids are my responsibility and I don't want them to suffer from what this world has to offer.

A soul mate would be nice to have for someone who'd like to be mentally naked to another.  So far I haven't met a true soul mate, but it's not up to me is it?
Even if I wanted a relationship, this person doesn't just arrive on my command.
If the universe feels like us bumping into each other, we are bound to meet let it be this life time or next.
Why should anyone be bothered that I don't meet this person this life time?
I just don't get it.
Just chill.

Nocturnal bliss

Finally here - my new bed.
No more sloppy mattress~  woohoo!
Bye bye Ikea crap bed, you have served me "well" for the past 12 years.

Woohoo!

Yay! Road trip!

Too greedy?

Ok, I might have taken up too many projects at the same time.
Wonder if I'll have time to finish them all?
It's already December, 3 more months away from the Calgary audition that I want to do, and still haven't started looking at the rep.
This is so gonna go well! XD

Restart

I was hoping there's more time to chill and rest when I'm in London, turned out I had limited time 'cause the freaking Sibelius 3 was difficult and I need to practise, and I was also invited to a Halloween party - first one I attended EVER.

It's tiring... it's really unwise to catch up on Vampire Diaries too late at night when I should be catching up on sleep instead.

On a different note, I randomly checked postings and found out there are 3 auditions that I might want to try: Calgary, Winnipeg, and Saskatoon.
Haven't touched my audition rep so long, but I'm confident I can pick it up in no time.
So this might mean I'll have to quit one of my office jobs soon, or at least reduce some hours to concentrate on practising.
Looking forward to that! Ha!
My last audition must've been at least 4 years ago?